So sorry for your loss. I feel your pain.
It has been over 25 years since I have had a 4 leg friend.
Erika has never had a dog. I finally gave in and we drove to Benson AZ and picked up our 9 week old Soft Coated Wheaten Terrier a week ago.
Erika is beside herself. She loves Darla and so do I. What a sweet puppy. I wish I hadn't waited so long.
As a dog lover I am sure you will make a decision when the time is right. Go the distance.